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Please be you

 

The phone rings at a quarter till nine                   
I rush to pick it up see who is or isn't there
I’m hoping, asking, pleading for a miracle
Please be you tonight

I take my Bible to the place the bus stops
I look both ways to see if you are there
I’m hoping, asking, pleading for a miracle
Please be there this time

Maybe I’m foolish, maybe Im naive
I want to tell you all important things
I’m hoping, asking, pleading for a miracle
Please be willing this time

I get on my knees, look to the sky
I pray I may get this right
I’m hoping, asking, pleading for a miracle
Please do not deny this time

I look into your eyes, speak a word or two
Do you get it, understand, know what I mean
I’m hoping, asking, pleading for a miracle
I want you to know what's special to me

You say good bye, and then turn away                  
When will I see you again
I’m hoping, praying, asking for a miracle
May the seed fall on fertile ground

All I want is to tell you He loves you
To say he died for you
I know, I believe, I trust in Him
And I hope you do too this time

Its not a joke, Its about eternity
Will you be there
He saves, He forgives, He gives new faith
And I want it for you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Psalm of Praise

 

“Have mercy on me, O God, according

to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me. Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit. Within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit. To sustain me (Psalm 51:1-12)”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A few thoughts:

 

God doesn't care where you are, he cares about where your heart it going.

 

God only wants one thing from you, you.

 

Trust in the God who created, not the the creation God created.

 

God gave his law to be a description of what the perfect life might look like.

 

Praying for enemies does not mean we pray that so and so stops being such a jerk, but we pray that so and so experiences the rich blessing of knowing Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior.

 

Don't worry about saving the world, that is God's job; instead, spend your time living your life like one who is saved, giving all thanks and praises to God.

 

How easily we confuse God's gifts with God himself.

 

I am a sinner, well duh.... I am forgiven, well duh.

 

Stop trying to change people, so they fit your idea of perfection; Instead, trying loving people, so they may love you in spite of your imperfections.

 

God lowered himself and became like us, in order to save us. We should like-wise lower ourselves in order to bring the Good News to those around us. This does not mean lowering our morals, beliefs, and standards, but means lowering our pride and selfishness.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Two Choices:

 

Maybe some of you have felt this way before, I know I have.

 

Were to begin...

 

I was faced with a choice today.

 

choice a:

complain that it is cloudy

complain that the food tastes bad

complain that he/she always has the good luck

complain that Esau, not Jacob should have received the promise

mope around aimlessly for days because something I want isn't meant to be

argue that the world is going down, it might as well take me too

wine and wine all day about anything that is less than perfect

 

choice b:

thank the Lord for the cool breeze

praise God for the harvest he gives

congratulate on a job well done

rejoice in a god that defies man's law

walk with a mission, whatever God had it be

stand up and let the world know you are a Christian

lift to God my  broken heart and let him mold and shape me

 

I was faced with a choice today. Choice a would have been easier, besides it makes more since to those in the world. Choice b is ludicrous to those who do not call upon the Lord; it takes much more effort than choice a. As I awoke this morning a stared both choices in the eyes; I wanted to go down both to see which one was more wise. Slowly I began to walk; I did not know which way I was going, suddenly I realized choice b was where I should be. I mustered up all my strength and set out. As I walked down choice b, I took one last glimpse at the other path. Only then did I realize that choice a only lasted a few feet and then bang, brick wall. "For when complaints and gripes consume us they suck out every last ounce of strength. Those they make since, they play havoc on your mind."

 

"Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promises is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds." Hebrews 10: 22-24

 

You are at a cross road you can't go one way and then go back, "If you choose choice a, all of your strength will be gone before you realize the mistake. If you choose choice b, the thought of going back will never cross your mind." But I know all to often I have chosen choice a; I have found myself close to the end of my rope; only by the grace of God have I been given a second chance to choose a or b.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mountains and More

 

It has often been said that, "God will take you to the highest mountain to show you the grandeur of his love," I believe that it is also true that God sometimes takes you to the deepest valley to make that same love more evident. Just remember, mountains or valleys, they are all God's workmanship.

 

Speaking of mountains and valleys: looking back over the first twenty years of my life, some of the mountains of my life have turned out to be the shallowest moments of my existence and some of the valleys have turned out to be the strongest moments of my walk with Christ. Again both valleys and mountains are all part of God's workmanship

Remember sometimes the valleys of our life are our best witness to the world. (Review the story of Job especially ch. 42:1-3)

 

Have you ever felt inadequate to serve God, well think about all the inadequate people God used to do miraculous things. For example King David was a shepherd and out of all of his brothers was the least likely to be a king, but he was perfect for the role God had planned. Paul was the worst of sinners, yet he is the author of more New Testament books than any other. Christ himself was born in a manger to less than famous people (although now they are famous, because God made them famous).

 

It is easy to be popular, but it is at times difficult to be a popular Christian.

 

When I was a child I talked, thought, and reasoned like a child, a few years later I thought I was doing these things as an adult would, only to realize I was only an older child. For the process of maturing is one that lasts until Christ himself raises us out of the grave.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

People

 

I was thinking about the number of people I have met over my life. Each one was a special individual that God put in my life at a special time, some have obviously had more of an impact on me than others, but still God has used even seemingly insignificant people to show me his love and grace. Unfortunately, we meet many people one time and never see them again, still your life is changed because of that seemingly "one night stand." I wish I could write or call every single person who has ever touched my life, but I can't even remember some of their names.

So, as you read this story, look around, see who has walked into your life and who has walked out; try to think of a friend you haven't seen in weeks, months, or years. Once you have thought of these people, close your eyes and say a prayer of thanks for the impact, however big or small. God bless, PAW.

 

Julia brushed a tear from her eyes as the last pieces of furniture were loaded in to the moving van. Leaving Boston was going to be hard on each member of the Jansen family, but more so for Julia. As a Freshman in high school, she was being ripped away from everything she ever knew, everything that was ever important to her. She was leaving every friend she ever knew, and going half way across the country. She was happy her dad had received the promotion, but still felt bitter for making her leave at this point in her life.

Not only was Julia leaving behind many friends, but she felt as if she was leaving behind business incomplete. Julia had accepted Jesus a year before, and felt on fire for the Lord. Her group of friends were largely non Christian, so she took every second she could to witness to them. Now, she might never get a chance to finish telling them about the hope she had found in Christ.

The drive to the Jansen’s new house took forever, but eventually they arrived, and moved everything in. The neighborhood was a very well to do neighborhood, with two community pools, a community rec. center, and the houses seemed like mansions. Julia thought to herself, great a bunch of stuck up aristocrats.

The next few weeks seemed to drag by, until the middle of August rolled around, and she started classes, without having made any new friends. By this time Julia was doubting everything about her faith. “How could a loving God bring me out here? I am so lonely. Why am I here? What is my purpose,” these are a few of the questions which raced through Julia’s head.

Well Julia, like most teens, found a way to survive. She quickly found a new group of friends and even began her own campus wide Bible study. Still, question and concern for her old friends tore at her heart. Julia talked often about her old friends, and sometimes got to the point where she would weep bitterly for her friends thousands of miles away.

One day when Julia was especially sad, Robert, a friend from her new school took her aside and said, “Julia I know you hated walking out of your friend’s lives, but I am grateful you walked in to my life.” He went on to explain about how, although he had always gone to church and hung out with the “Christian” group, he had never truly been a believer, at least, not tell Julia had come around. In fact, the day he had met Julia, he had decided that if something didn't change drastically, he would commit suicide hat night. It had been Julia who walked into his life and given him strength to live.

That same day when Julia got home from school, she found a letter in the mail, from one of her friends in Boston. It read:

“ Dear Julia,

I hope all is going well with you. I miss you very much. I want to thank you for telling me about Jesus. Even though I did not originally seem interested in Christ, I know now that I need him more than anything. Even though I am really only a child as far as the faith goes, I have taken it upon me to finish your work of bringing our group closer to Christ. In short, I want to thank you for being part of my life, not just back then, but always. You walked into my life at just the right time, and pray that you continue to walk into other lives, at just the right time.

With love.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cry for Love                                                                     

 

 

“Lord what fools these Mortals be.”

This was the line I had brought to mind

As the casket slowly plummeted into the deep hole.

Fools that is what we are all.

Broken hearts strewn about

Like a three year old with crowns in hand,

Coloring with no thought.

 

They could have saved him

He only needed an easy remedy.

The medication was in their hands,

But, no one shoved it down his throat.

They just sat there

As he sang and dance.

They knew lives joyous dreams

Which gave life on a young stem.

But how quickly bugs attack a young bud,

and suck and rip out every last hope.

 

And now the life wilts in the wind

And its body is no longer distinguishable from dust.

Oh, what happened what went wrong?

It was a beautiful rose cherished by all,

and now it has returned to the depths from which it came.

All who saw it, loved it dearly.

They would look and smile upon it

And say to each other,

“What a glorious life this rose has a head.”

But, now it’s gone.

What went wrong?

 

The authorities should be called

All who new it brought into question.

Are you the one?

Yes, you are he.

You’re the one who does tend and nourish.

How often did you water it?

What? you say

“Water?”

“But, they have roots,”

“Don’t they?”

Yes, but someone needs to provide

water for the roots.

There is a drought out there, can’t you see?

 

You should be punished

Here’s your fine.

Guilt, guilt, guilt;

That’s your life long sentence.

Carry it in your heart,

Wear it on your selves.

You loved it in your heart,

But failed, failed, failed;

To show love in your lives.

Water is all it needed

Love shown, not thought.

“Lord what fools these mortals be.”

 

“Lord what fools these mortals be.”

They do not toil in the soil,

but try reap what was not sown.

They run around,

But forget to look into the tearful eyes.

Broken hearts, of love not shown.

 

Oh, how the people weep and mourn.

Tears flow down their cheeks,

and forms puddles on the newly mounted dirt.

Maybe now, after all these years...

 

 

 

 

 

Please take a moment to tell someone special that you love them. I needed, you needed, the whole world needs it. If we daily water each other, with the love that comes from above, there will be a harvest rich with life. Don’t hold onto love, saying, “I need it for myself,” but try to give it away; for love, like water runs in cycles. An ounce given, can be an ounce received. And remember I love each of you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The one thing God can't do...

We have probably heard the phrase, "Nothing you will ever do, will make God love you any less," and this is so true. No matter how much we screw up, God's love remains constant. This is truly an amazing thought.

What I find even more amazing is, "Nothing you ever do, will make God love you any more." His love already runs so deep and wide for each of us that no matter how many "good" things we do, it is impossible for him to love us any more than he already does. He already loves you with every ounce of love he has. God, the creator of love, has poured every ounce of love he ever made on you, and every ounce of that same love on me. He did this when he sent Christ into the world to die, and still does it every day. Nothing we ever do, or do not do, will ever change this.

Look at Romans 8:39. It say's that "Neither height nor depth,... can separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus." No extreme we go to in life can change God's love, it is steady. If God were to reward us of our few good deeds, he would also have to punish us for our many bad deeds (and according to Romans 6:23 "The wages," of even one, "sin is death.") Rather than try to live on a reward system with Christ, we live on a grace system, where regardless of our successes and failures, God's love remains the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

This does not give us a free ride to sin, but rather the "good" things we do are out of thanksgiving and praise, for all Christ has already done for us.

 

God bless each you & have a good week!